Saturday, January 15, 2005

40 Days of Purpose? So far, so good!

Ok, so here it is and we're 5 days into it. Yes, the Metal One is enjoying this. So much of what I have read has been things that I have pretty much followed or understood in my Christian Walk. But, it's been so good to have this be reminded to me. I have been praying for a while to let go of myself and let God run the show. A lot of times, I keep wanting to get in the way. I'm glad Sabrina is going through it too. It's been a good kick in the pants for her I can tell. It's sad when I gave up on her almost because she wasn't willing to do much in the way of devotional time with me and she just stayed in this dry bones deadspot area. Seeing her read the book has helped her realize to get back to some basics of life. It isn't about us. I have so wanted to die to self. Maybe that is how I'm ready to die. Maybe not the physical death, but the death to self. I'm still praying for the answer of what could keep me from eternity. I feel that my purpose is coming along slowly but surely. Music has always been such a driving force in my life and now the thought of doing the RAM band has gotten some excitement amongst a few of you. On a personal front, I'm getting to be a part of a band that will rock the masses. Alright, not a lot of masses, but to get to be in a metal band is something I have wanted to do for 20 years or more. And these kids wanted me in the band and they like my songs. Go figure that one out. Must the Slayer influence in my one song. Most importantly, I want to let God bless me & this band with songs to hopefully touch people and help them in leading them to Christ.
So, it's all new to me and yet it is all so refreshing to me. I look forward to this 40 day journey. I'm ready for a bigtime mosh pit in Heaven!