Surrender and Trust

That's what I am dealing with folks. Seems like the car is wanting to be hassle with us again.
God, the car is Yours. The house is Yours. My job is Yours. My music is Yours. My everything is Yours. What is it of Yours haven't I surrendered to You? You have forgiven me of my sins. Do I trust? Do I truly believe I am Yours? Am I living for You? Lord, I need Your help. Teach me what it takes to be obediant to Your Will. Take me Lord, I'm Yours.

I'm tired.

Today I wondered if God is really smiling at me. Sometimes I don't always feel that I am being completely and heartfelt obediant to Him. I am so ready for a long extended break from reality. Lord, I just want to Yours. Truly and completely Yours.

A week away from reality would be nice

I have to admit something. For some reason last night, I came home and felt like I just wanted to go somewhere where I didn't have my cell phone, computer or anything. Just spend time alone with God. Clear my head out. Seems like I have a lot of junk to deal with and just when I thought it was getting cleared out, I got more that was hidden away just waiting to rear its ugly head.
Lord, my prayer to you today is to grant me strength, wisdom and knowledge. Please push me out of the way when I get in the way. Thank you Lord!

Guitars, double bass and praise lyrics

Saturday was a ton of fun for me. Getting together with Alan, Dustin, Laura, Trey, Josh, Kyle and a couple of other guys who I can't remember their names (sorry guys!) was so much fun for this aging metalhead. But, I couldn't help but feel bad about being there. Laura seemed really disconnected from all of us. Alan and Dustin absolutely blew me away as they usually do when they play. But, I'm happy to hear songs that I have had in my own head get fleshed out wiht drums and stuff. Might not be the most metal thing anyone ever heard, but my biggest goal is just honor Christ and be praising Him. I have been letting my ego run me too much and I pray that God will help me with that. But, it did warm my heart to hear "Father's Hand" and "Here's My Son" have a drum sound behind it. But for now, I pray that my fingers can learn the songs that Dustin and Alan have been putting together. And pray that we can come up with stuff together as a unit and see how we can honor God with our music. And yes, I include Laura in that unit! Pray for Laura as she deals with stuff in her life. Pray for me as I deal with my ego. Pray for me to allow God to be in my heart and that I worship Him.

Wow, was worship good!

I needed worship this morning. It's not about me. It's all about Jesus. It's all about God. It's not about me. My ego has taken too much of my life and it's time to let it go and let God. Enough worshiping little gods. God, it is all about You and my prayer is to continue to keep me out of Your Way. Everything in my past is gone. There isn't anything I can do about it. You have forgiven me of my sins. Whether or not someone doesn't forgive me for something I did to them, that is their problem. They need to take that with you. Give me strength in fighting the enemy from wanting to take my joy. Thank you Lord for your awesome mercy and love!

40 Days of Purpose? So far, so good!

Ok, so here it is and we're 5 days into it. Yes, the Metal One is enjoying this. So much of what I have read has been things that I have pretty much followed or understood in my Christian Walk. But, it's been so good to have this be reminded to me. I have been praying for a while to let go of myself and let God run the show. A lot of times, I keep wanting to get in the way. I'm glad Sabrina is going through it too. It's been a good kick in the pants for her I can tell. It's sad when I gave up on her almost because she wasn't willing to do much in the way of devotional time with me and she just stayed in this dry bones deadspot area. Seeing her read the book has helped her realize to get back to some basics of life. It isn't about us. I have so wanted to die to self. Maybe that is how I'm ready to die. Maybe not the physical death, but the death to self. I'm still praying for the answer of what could keep me from eternity. I feel that my purpose is coming along slowly but surely. Music has always been such a driving force in my life and now the thought of doing the RAM band has gotten some excitement amongst a few of you. On a personal front, I'm getting to be a part of a band that will rock the masses. Alright, not a lot of masses, but to get to be in a metal band is something I have wanted to do for 20 years or more. And these kids wanted me in the band and they like my songs. Go figure that one out. Must the Slayer influence in my one song. Most importantly, I want to let God bless me & this band with songs to hopefully touch people and help them in leading them to Christ.
So, it's all new to me and yet it is all so refreshing to me. I look forward to this 40 day journey. I'm ready for a bigtime mosh pit in Heaven!